in fact
i don't
and i used to believe in friendship , but this was destroyed by your selfishness
i deleted all the record
to convince myself that nothing happened
and i can start over
i understood i was shaping a lie
to fool my mind , my emotion
i would like to end my life by giving up
i believe i am an useless asshole
and they proved that
i am nothing but piece of annoying shit in their eyes
i thought
yes
most of the feeling came from my mind , my prediction
but they all are based on true evidence
evidence that they hate me asking for help
i never really reject to help others if i can
but they rejected my request regarding the loss of their own benefits
do you know how depressing when you rejected by some one you believed ?
that moment you understand that you are the problem
