i thought i knew how to communicate in fact i don't and i used to believe in friendship , but this was destroyed by your selfishness i deleted all the record to convince myself that nothing happened and i can start over i understood i was shaping a lie to fool my mind , my emotion i would like to end my life by giving up i believe i am an useless asshole and they proved that i am nothing but piece of annoying shit in their eyes i thought yes most of the feeling came from my mind , my prediction but they all are based on true evidence evidence that they hate me asking for help i never really reject to help others if i can but they rejected my request regarding the loss of their own benefits do you know how depressing when you rejected by some one you believed ? that moment you understand that you are the problem