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Well understood that she is not the direct cause of all the shits ever happened. But she made the scenario ! To be exact, she plants me need the predators. Whatever happened , all she can do is nothing! She knew nothing about the predators, nothing for solution, nothing nothing nothing nothing! Every time the shit happened, all I can do it's believing that my future will be better. There is nothing to support my belief. Nothing but a belief. I don't know what I could do to avoid all the shits OR to slow down the deterioration. It seems there is a temporary solution, but the fear that deep-down in my heart is still there. I can do nothing to prevent all the shit happen again and again. Just helpless crying and endless screaming.  😢

好久沒回這裡 其實仔細想想 我死了之後，會懷念我的人並不多

我發現自己無論發生幾開心既事，或者人地點讚我，鐘意我都好 好多時我都開心唔起黎 永遠都看得對方既讚美係假既，謊言來的。 然後就會諗起自己被家人拎去比較，奚落既時候 之後就會好想喊好想喊 或者我永遠都唔會好番😶

好想辭職 好眼瞓 好想永遠咁瞓落去，乜野都唔理 人生真係好無聊，瞓食做，瞓食做...... 我都想做自己鍾意既野......可以嗎？ 點解我要出世係呢個咁既家庭，遇上咁既事....係咪前世做錯左咩… 唉…人生....fuck my life

Sometimes i believe i am insane. I cried at night, laugh at morning. it's so tired.... but it's not possible to forget and forgive what she done to me. Everything i done it's not good enough,not good enough........ I am mistake. i could be anyone but not me.